Welcome to my Mind

Life, my friends, is a playground.....and I just fell off my swing.
Or perhaps,
In the dodgeball game of life I just took a ball to the face.
Hmmm, think I'll stick with the first one.
Life is a big ol' playground. You can go down the slide, but it may not usher you to your chosen destination. The jungle gym is a classic. However, it is very easy to get tangled up in a mess or two. No thanks. The merry-go-round, well that just makes me puke. You can try hopscotch, jump rope, monkey bars.....so many choices out there. My personal favorite? The swings. The place you can just sit comfortably and soar. Push your legs out and you can shoot forward, breeze frolicking through your hair and look to where you may be headed, so many possibilities. Now tuck your legs under and you can throw it into reverse and reflect on the past. In my life I have been very content just going back and forth, never really committing to either direction. Here it is safe, easy and undemanding. It's as though I am stuck between who I was and who I will be, without ever acknowledging who I am.
Well, recently life decided I've spent a little too much time on the swings and chose to plant my sorry ass in the sand. And damn how things have changed in the play yard. Not long ago I was writing term papers, finding time to visit the Fam, juggling various social engagements, and just trying to get my ass through school in one piece. My biggest stress was understanding Geometry (which I still despise by the way...Go Algebra!). Nowadays, much to my surprise, I'm married, trying to start a career (if I ever pick one), learning to care for a home, watching childhood friends start families and wondering when I'll start my own.  I know for a fact I'm not the only one out there that is staring towards their 30's and beyond while feeling as though they still haven't figured anything out. And more importantly, do I have to be an adult now?
Somedays it all makes me feel a little crazy. And not just "I put my keys in the freezer" kind of crazy, I'm talking certifiable. Now I'm gazing into the mirror wondering who this chick is, where my instruction manual for all this shit went at and why I wasn't properly prepared for all this adult crap?!
And what is our lesson from all of this boys and girls?
EVERYTHING in life is subject to change. Whether we are prepared for it or not.
Life. You can't control it, but it will introduce you to new and exciting people, take you on harrowing adventures and smack you upside the head once and awhile when you need it.
So what do I choose to do with this new information?
Blog of course. Why? Because it's cheaper than therapy. :)